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 Hello! This is the blogpage of Miss Shui-Jean Yap, formerly of Subang Utama High School and Canning College. Now a medical student of The University of Western Australia.
I am one who absolutely adores Manchester United (was, am and will always be a loyal fan who pretends to own stakes in the club), feeds on chocolate as often as possible as long as the weighing machine allows it, and would do almost anything to play golf like Annika Sorenstam (#1 ladies' golfer in the world).
I'm a patsy for soft toys, golf equipment and oakley sunglasses. As an avid chocoholic, icecreamoholic, golfaholic and shopaholic, it is a mountain of a task maintaining a balance in life. That's why i adore living in eucalyptus trees and sleep 22 hours a day when permitted. The Perth Zoo is part of my life.
I love debating and being sarcastic. Don't get me wrong, I CAN be nice. I'm hard headed, Grade 1 in patience school, Grade 2 in apologizing school and Grade3 in listening school. My german shepard, Storm, is a diploma holder in obeying school and a PHD in cuteness school.
Smoking annoys me, spitting disgusts me, killing frightens me, while cholesterol shocks me. L parking avoids me while i'm good buddies while parallel. hard relationship. Art intrigues me while science bedazzles me! original cds are a must while pirated Vcds are fine. yes, i forgot to add i'm a hypocrite at times.
I'm hopeless at computer gadgets while my younger brother is a whiz, my elder sister is pursuing graphic designing and my wonderful parents funds us. My grandma is the greatest chef in the world. My room is small yet cozy, unfortunately it also draws the attention of cockroaches which i extremely despise (they should be exterminated on a large scale and be extinct), moths, ants and other uninvited guests.
I'm incredibly fascinated by Dan Brown, particularly his masterpiece "da Vinci's Code", J.K. Rowling's "Harry Potter", and Ray Bradbury's amazing novels. My music collection consists of sarah mclachlan, alicia keys, instrumental and celtic music. Enjoy certain pop and rock but realizes too much of it kills. Like SMOKING. wait, that kills no matter how much...its just a matter of time.
I love my life the way it is. Times can be difficult but i believe a have guidance the whole way. God, family, friends. Life is indeed one amazing puzzle. Dare to take the challenge and complete it?
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Tuesday, November 22, 2005
hello one, hello all!
Gosh, it has been awhile since i last visited this site, hasn't it? Yes, i was fully aware of my absense, only insufficient to spark any guilty feelings in me. HAH. i bet you were hoping for me to apologize...well in your face!
Plenty has happened in these few months since i last blogged.
Number one: For starters, I've moved house.
My new address is 97, WInthrop Avenue, Nedlands, 6009 WA.
Wonder why i moved? Good question. It all started when conflict arose between my ex housemate and I. Yeah, the one whom I wrote about earler who was super concern about me. Well looks like that degree of attention went a bit too far if you know what i mean...err..not for me but for him.
Number two: I'm attached. Yes, no longer single, desperate and available. Some people know, some don't. well, looks like all of you do now. It's funny how i always go for guys older than me...i don't seem to be attracted to one of my age (with an obvious exception, but that's history)..he's 22 btw. And all this while I thought I was cursed to be single..
Humber three: I'm working now. No no, not at a clinic/ hospital..although I very much wished i was. It's at a cafe, where i can get all the free coffees, pastries and food as I want. Yes, I finally learned how to make coffee with one of those noisy machines..
The pay may be good, but with all the work i'm doing, i'd say it's even with the time and effort i'm sacrificing. The washing (which is never ending) makes my hands peel...so i carry moisturizer EVERYWHERE.
Number four: Exams are done. finally. Noticed my nick on MSN? had four papers. The first 3 were tough...thank God for the final paper. I do hope that will help elevate my marks..it was a "Biochem and Molecular Biol" paper. Yeah the name sounds scary, but really it's not as bad as anatomy..at least it doesn't vary like HUMANS do. ugh.
NUmber five: My life group leader gor married. GOsh the wedding was BEEEEEEEEEEEAuTIFUL. I don't think i've ever seen of witnessed anything like this in my life. Everything was perfect. The photos, vows, decorations...ah~ kinda wished you got married without the commitments just yet.
alright, that's all for now...sorry about the delay (darn! i apologized in the end..oh well, Jesus was humble)
Posted at Tuesday, November 22, 2005 by alias
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Wednesday, September 07, 2005
anatomy-can't live with it, can't live without it
ola~
yes it has been that long. But i have been awfully busy, so really can't be helped. I know i always use that excuse, but as a matter a fact that's the truth, the truth and nothing but the truth.
The past fortnight has been extremely busy. I had an 8am exam last friday on biochemistry which was quite tough. Then i spend the whole weekend till yesterday studying anatomy like crazy. The exam was today, at 10 am and finished at 1140 am. I can't say the exam was awfully hard, but yet again i can't say it was too easy either.
Imagine 81 students (we were the 1st group of 2) in a lab room, all sitting in front of a station with a body part in front of them. Hands, arms, legs, brain, pelvis, bones, things like that. We were given 2 questions per body part, most of them to name vessels, whether an artery or vein. What they are, sometimes what they are used for. It's so hard to differentiate between the vessels, plus we also had to name whether they are left or right, internal or external..these sort of things.
Besides that there were also some x-rays, angiograms, CT scans. Did i forget to mention that we only had 60 seconds per question? That's insane, I knnow! only 1 minute for walking to the next station (they were very very close, but some people were just taking their own sweet time), looking at the part, analyzing and writing. So everytime that ((*&(*&*buzzer goes off we had to move, whether or not you know the answer. This basically means you had no time to think. You were expected to know.
the smell of formaldehyde, looking at body parts one after another and most of the time not connected, ie 1. hand, 2. leg, 3.bran, 4. x-ray...the brain just had to rummage through files and keep on processing like crazy. Good thing we had rest stations every few stations, but really i think you realize stop spots are not RELAX spots at all. It was when the whole body keeps on flashing in your brain hoping to find a vessel or part which matches hat you just saw. and then move on to the next question hoping you know the answer.
It's not something i've ever done before, but it's something im gonna do for the rest of my undergraduate program. Good introduction..at least i wasn't to freaked out. My next exam's on 7th october..Cardiovascular unit and a Clinical Practice quiz. But still it leaves me 2 weeks to recharge before i push my late night studying again...
Posted at Wednesday, September 07, 2005 by alias
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Thursday, August 04, 2005
wow!
so much has happened since i last blogged. I know it's been that long, but please bear with me..i havent had much time at all. The last time i blogged, i was complaning. This time, i'm rejoicing!
First and foremost, my beloved brother is looking forward to accepting Christ in his life. How awesome is that? I was talking to my dad on the phone, and he told me that my bro has been asttending some church rallies, which i thought was a great idea (Bless his friend who brought him). I didn't want to push it further because in case i get too far, so i decided to derail to some other topic instead. But then my bro comes by to "claim" the phone from my dad, goes to some quiet corner and whispers, "Jean che-che, I want to be Christian!".
Gosh you have no idea how surprised I was when I heard that. He said that he was very touched through the messages he heard at church, and i suppose that prompted him to make the most imporatnt decision in life to accept God. It's amazing how prayers work out so well when one perseveres through the hard times. I felt so so blessed that day. After I hung up the phone, I just broke down and thanked God for such an inspiring moment to carry on my journey with Him.
It was even more overwhelming that it was just the night before that one of the youth leaders in my church was preaching about how important faith was. Among all the categories of faith, the most necessary was persevering faith. And that was so true for me. I've gone through so much, but never let my faith be rattled and continue praying. For example, getting into medicine. I prayed more than a year for this. For my family to accept that i'm Christian (things are great now), and to get a car. After about being disappointed twice, my dad told me that he'll be coming down in October, and this time he's definitely getting a car coz he needs something to drive around whenever he comes by. Since i'm the only one who really needs a car...it goes to me! Terrific!
My church is doing the "40- Days of Purpose" program now. If you have never heard of it before, it's a program where we would read a chapter from a book of the same name by Pastor Rick Warren (US) to know what we are really on earth for. Our purpose to fulfill God's purpose. I did it last year at my old church as well, but i was not committed enough. In fact i did not even finish the book. This time around, things are totally different. I make time to read the chapter everyday, and devote effort and prayer in understanding what is written.
I notice that everything just starts to fall into place when you commit and surrender yourself to God. It doesn't matter if times are tough, because He never gives you any problem which you cannot handle. People notice that i'm much more cheerful and energized nowadays. I'm more bouncy and happy. In fact, I feel so much better just depending on Him for everything - i love going to church, life group, mixing with my friends.
I do believe that God kept me in Perth for a reason. He knew that i would grow here (not physically, okay maybe in fatness), but spiritually. That i would find a church to settle in, and be comfortable with who I am. To receive good and inspiring messages and to learn to love. I always wonder how things would have been like if I stayed in Malaysia or went to Melbourne. I don't have to wonder anymore, because I know that I'm in the best spot i can ever be.
i know this is all "churchy-churchy holy-moley", but it's really all i'm thinking about to write now:)
Posted at Thursday, August 04, 2005 by alias
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Tuesday, July 26, 2005
housekeeping must be one of the hardest things to do, and it's not a unit they are offering at univeristy either. don't get me wrong, i'm not talking about house chores like cleaning and laundry. i'm talking about notorious stuff, like doing accounts, banking, buying groceries when you don't have a car, printing out notes at the worst place in the world but you have credit there. now that's what i call hardcore.
i always have to write little sticky notes and put them in place where i would look often to remind myself of what to do. there are indeed quite a few on my list - studying (which is never checked off because you have to be doing it as often as possible and it never ends), typing out notes for an elderdy patient visit (which has been there for 2 weeks?), groceries at subiaco (not near, but cheaper), handing out resumes (got to find time for that too), checking email (yes, that's not on a "isn't that what you do everyday" basis) and oh yeah, the ultimatum - banking. I have no idea how mums can keep record of all that - horendous.
Speaking about good money keeping skills, i only get motivated when i get money, get it? after that it somehow goes downhill and I miss recording heaps of stuff, which i just occupy some lines and label under "missed..oops!".
There's an advertisment i saw recently about how to achieve financial advice through some section in the paper. It's on a nice pink background, where on the top left corner has a picture of the newspaper's "financial review" section, and on the bottom right corner, it reads "...OR MARRY WELL." yeah, my dad certainly took option B.
anyway, i will have to head another lecture in about 20 mins. before that i would have to print my lecture slides out. the no-labs, fun week is officially over. and my body's still aching after doing a kick-boxing class at gym 3 days ago.
I want the Golden ticket to Willy Wonka's CHOCOLATE factory. Yes, then I can die blissfully. For now - WORK.
Posted at Tuesday, July 26, 2005 by alias
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Tuesday, July 19, 2005
As the holidays are now gone, it's time for me to step back into the reality of uni life again. Trust me, i'm defintely not complaning. I think my brain has gone on sleep mode for too long, and forcing it back to work is necessary.
The holidays most certainly did not go as planned. I wanted a job. I wanted to study. I wanted to read some books. Instead, I did not get a job (idiots, i would have made a great employee), i did not study, and i read only TWO books.
However miserable i spent my holidays, rest assured I had the most marvellous time when Justine came to Perth. We had the bestest time together - just hanging out, visiting places, eating, taking about our embrassing childhood and silly moments. Our conversations were sometimes so funny we would just laugh to tears, and our bellies would start aching so bad. Yes, I think i almost suffocated at one point.
Her visit was truly a blessing, a rejuvenation I needed to remind me of my friends back at home and how much i miss everyone. It also motivated me to "stay alive" even if I were to reach a point where i needed someone to rely on for anything - encouragement, listening, bitching...you know. It was just such a wonderful time, I don't at all regret not getting a job nor studying.
I finished the 6th Harry Potter in 12 hours. Yes, it was truly savouring. I know that some may think that i should not have finish the book so fast and enjoy it bit by bit, but i couldn't. why?
1. i have a 10% quiz on 1st August which i have yet to study for,
2. an interview exam (doctor-patient) on 25th July which i must practise for,
3. the book just seems to call out to me to read it (can't you hear it??)
i have very little contact hours this semester, which gives me some leeway to work. However, the lecturers have pointed out that this semester is the true entry into the realms of the medicine course. yes, i should go study now. I see the NERD sign flashing above my head.
Posted at Tuesday, July 19, 2005 by alias
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Saturday, July 09, 2005
GAWD. I have no idea whether or not to be contented with my results. On one hand they are good, on the other they are just plain bad. Simple as that.
Okay, I have to admit that i wasn't expecting the best of marks, considering how i had performed, and i was also expecting to perhaps almost failing one unit (the one i had complained like nuts about). I did the justification, told myself that "as long as I passed" it's alright. well, i wasn't satisified although i got a wee more than that.
Final results : 2 HD, 1 D (which i should have got a HD) and a dumb dumb dumb dumb dumber CR.
Yeah, the CR's for cell biology. oh well, back to the drawing board. I was actually contented with my results last night, but this morning, when i found out that there could be at least 2 smart-assessss with all HDs, damn.
My schelude for next semester looks as clotted as ever. I may only have 2 units, but one unit weights 17/24 credit points, has 60+ lectures and about 10-15 labs. sigh. but this means i have a chance to buck up.
My stethoscope from Malaysia has arrived (you know, it came back with a friend, but really its just the stet i want), so have my earrings and hopefully some form of food. Yes yes, it's winter and it's cold, so naturally one tends to consume more. Although, I have no idea how some people (some guy in particular who went back to Malaysia from Melbourne, but we shall not mention his name in case i get sued) can LOSE WEIGHT.
I have been attending gym quite religiously (hehe) about 5-6 times a week in the mornings. Good way to get fit, sweat, and feel better about yourself. Besides that it also shrugs off the guilty conscience when I'm having my daily dosage of chocolate (it's prescribed for a disorder I have that requires me to have chocolate everyday or i go into shut down).
Did you know that pass a certain time Australian TV shows porn? well, not exactly the kind you subscribe to, but they have absolutely no censorship whatsoever in any film/ movie/ documentary which is shown - hence i call that porn.
There was a documentary last night talking about "webcam" girls who sell their body online. They lure both guys and girls to watch them "strut their stuff" while having a chat room. And these people are willing to pay for all this nonsense. What sort of world are we living in today? GAWD.
Posted at Saturday, July 09, 2005 by alias
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Friday, July 08, 2005
dumb dumb uni online service
you know how now that you're in uni/coll, you're suppose to do EVERYTHING online? And how this includes getting your results? Over here, you don't even get a written statement for them, and if you want one (say to happily send back to your parents (???)) you have to order it, and they'll freakin' charge you!
Anyway, that's not the point, because i certainly have no need to send one home (yes yes not good enough..). It's just the fact that i've tried so hard to prepare myself to see my results, and it backfired on me twice!! The first time was when it was SUPPOSED to be released on 4th July, then today, 8th July at 7am.
This is getting so annoying. At least on the 4th, I was in the warmth o a friend's house. Today, I braced the cold morning to come down and use the internet to check my marks (did i mention im freezing my ass off) and guess what? STILL UNAVAILABLE. buggers.
the only consolation i got was knowing that I passed all my units. That is definitely a big relief, no sups of deferred papers, or extra units! woo-hoo...now it's just for what score...
Posted at Friday, July 08, 2005 by alias
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Sunday, July 03, 2005
Okay, maybe there are some good ways to occupy holiday time.
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I had a great time on Friday night. I went for a concert at the Perth Concert Hall. It was a performance by a world famous violinist, Schlomo Mintz, with the W.A. Symphony Orchestra. For someone who does not play a single instrument, i'm very delighted that I was able to appreciate the classical music.
Schlomo Mintz was such a talented violinist. His name sounds odd right? well, that is an unfair measure to his amazing skill. It was so good to watch the whole orchestra in such synchrony and concentration, yet that the same time producing such beautiful music. wow. I shall be witnessing another concert as long as my money pocket can still allow it.
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Later at about 1am, I was looking around the house for some chocolate. Darn these cravings. and I'm not even pregnant. Imagine how it would be like when that happens.
Anyway, I started bugging my housemate that I wanted chocolate, but yet I knew it wasn't exactly very healthy to have something so rich, and sweet, and yummy, and perfect at that time (what am i saying? It's always the right time). After about 10 mins, he wanted to have chocolate too. See, what great influence Jean+ Chocolate has?
He constantly kept on offering to head to the nearby gas station to buy chocolate. But then I said, why not "Chocolate Ice cream?" HAH. WONDERFULLEST. So we quickly got changed and head of in search of Gelares.
Northbridge - closed. Strike 1.
South Perth - closed. Strike 2.
Leederville - closed. Strike 3 - - You're Out. Dammit.
So we headed to a 24 hour store, bought 2 magnums, 2 chocolate bars. headed to the gas station and got 2 coffees. The guy at the station gave us the coffees for free!
"You're alright, mate. Don't worry about it." he said, with two thumbs up.
It was 1.30am. We went to Kings' Park to eat the ice cream with our warm coffee. I forgot how wonderful Magnums were. It's been that long. Did i forget to mention that we were eating ice cream in an open park at about 7 c?? Yes, we were crazy. And we were NOT high.
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I bought 2 books from Angus&Robertson bookstore 2 days ago. I also conveniently reserved my copy of the 6th Harry Potter book. I cannot wait. Oh, and enquired whether they had "Golf: Annika's way" in their shelfs. As a self-proclaim No.1 fan, I was so embarrassed when he said that it was only out in September. Right.
Books i bought: Vanishing Acts by Jodi Picoult, and A God of Small Things by Arundrathi Roy. I'm 1/3 through the latter, and I must say, I'm happy with my purchase. Hey, they were having a 25% off fiction books! I deserve the break, and and it's books! not clothes, or movies..it's an expansion of knowledge! yes - justified.
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It took me 1 and 1/2 hours to wrapped my books. I refused to read my books before they are wrapped. Gawd, i did not know it was that that hard to wrap books. I WANT MY MUMMY. Well I did in the end, after much cursing and sellotape and wasted plastics. sheesh..
yes, the holidays are fun. oh i forgot to mention, my results are out tomorrow at 7pm. DARN.
Posted at Sunday, July 03, 2005 by alias
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Thursday, June 30, 2005
I swear im going to die of boredom. Having yet to find a job is one thing, thinking of how to occupy time is a totally different matter.
At the moment, I'm that desperate to listen to Yahoo! music which keeps on stopping because of the buffering, and to imagine that i'm on Yahoo Aus & NZ. This is sad.
Im being tormented by the fact that it's the holidays, I'm just seeing it drain my life away bit by bit as the days progress. There is absolutely nothing to do, well of course the case is quite different if one has unlimited (or at least some) supply of money. For now, that's something which I have a severe shortage on (don't we all?) and I really can't afford to do most things.
I can't go to Harbour Town despite the stunningly cheap yet good clothes and all-year-round 15/7 marvellous sales (hint hint aileen) because i'll just end up withdrawing from my ATM and feeling guilty later. I can't go out before lunch beacuse eating at home is just unbelievably cheaper, and I can't stay out till dinner for the same reason. yeah, i'm a cheapo. I need to find a rich boyfriend.
I need a job so bad dammit! won't the hospital just hire me?? I really don't mind cleaning after a patient gets sick (as in puke) or having to push the deceased to the morgue (okay, maybe i'm not that desperate just yet), but i really want to work! I admit, the money will prove its worth later, but I just want the experience and ultimately - to occupy time!!
I went to the bar last saturday night. My housemate just brought me there after we went out for some food. It was so freakin' packed. I had t scream for my friend to hear me, and i was lterally being pushed to the side. Height does matter.
He ordered himself a beer, and mine was "a drink for a girl". How cute. I ended up having a really diluted vodka lime.. While I was dressed in thick paded clothing while every other girl was in skimpy, sexy clothes (in the dead of winter, mind you), and practically everyone was smoking. One had their ciggie smoke right into my face, and there was really nothing much i could do about it. My hair stank so bad..ugh.
OH The bartenders and waiters were so cute. My friend actually went up to one and told him what I said. Good thing our drinks were done and I just ran out of the bar. It was so embarrassing!! He tried to convince me back inside to meet the guy..I refused and ran to the car. phew. I shall never open my big mouth again.
I went to the nearby shopping area to buy some fishballs for the spagethi sauce I was making for pot luck dinner tonight. Can you believe that a packet of 30 dumb fishballs are a freakin' AUD$4.30 at the oriental shop??? It's probably even less that RM3 in Malaysia. Sheesh, and i cooked easily 15 of them. I went to the local bookstore as well just to waste time. I couldn't help noticing that Angelina Jolie's picture graced almost half the gossip/beauty magazines on sale. Damn she's got amazing lips.
I'm only beginning to learn how to illegally download free music. I just remembered that I have a clinical report to do..YES! one day occupied. pathetic...maybe i should consider studying.
all i want is the big tigger i saw in myers.
Posted at Thursday, June 30, 2005 by alias
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Saturday, June 25, 2005
an idiot's guide to a girl's mind
it's just one of those days where you have nothing to do but lie on your bed and stare at the ceiling thinking. About what has happened in the past, how much you've learned, how much you've grown, how much you wished you had, how much to endure in the future.
Sometimes I wonder why I did somethings, what prompted me to do them and what did I think I would achieve from them. Remembering the old days, where we were carefree - just school, prefects, family, friends. Gosh life was perfect.
Then puberty hit - and you start having these rollercoaster emotions, expanding and contracting in certain areas, your craving for certain foods (okay okay I confess its chocolate) increases 10 fold, you become concern with how you look, how you dress, how you smell, what you eat. all this jazz.
and then comes that silly thing called CRUSH (a.k.a "LOVE" when it's probably just an infactuation)
"oOooOoh, that guy's cute isn't he? Gosh, I wish he'd look my way!" and when he does, you turn away. what the heck girls do that, being a girl myself, I still don't understand, but fact is we do.
"I like him so much, I hope he likes me too!..but so many girls like him.will he notice me?" and you tell his BESTEST friend but tells not to tell him. Get real, you know why you told his BESTEST friend. coz it's the BESTEST way to get the message across.
"I like him, but I don't know whether he likes me." Stop lying to yourself. You want to ask him, but you're too shy. Sleepless nights thinking about him, wishing he was hugging you. so what to do? Yeap, use the BESTEST friend.
"I like him, and he likes me, but i don't know if we'll work out." Gawd, who are you kidding? You know you want him, and he wants you do. If you don't try, heck, you'll just never know. Some people want this so bad and they never get it. If it doesn't work out, fine. If it does, "I told you so" just isn't enough.
"are you thinking what I'm thinking? exactly." is a silent message which girls transfer to each other using eye contact when in the presence of guys. Of every guy I have ever met, and used this on them, NONE understood. Yeah, it's a girl thing.
"okay, I know you like me, you may not think it's obvious, but i can smell it from miles away." Girls also have a built-in (must be from eating the apple of the wisdom tree) radar which can detect "waves on interest" from guys. Usually it's right, it can sometimes be fun, because we can play around with the attention, but it's also annoying because we have to device ways to avoid/ shake the guy off.
"Gosh, I'm already making my move by texting you, can't you just reply dammit?!" This is one of the most innocent ways girls use to get to know a guy better. You don't have to talk face to face, easier to spill and don't have to suffer the same amount of embarassment.
If a girl texts a guy first, and continues and continues, yeap, that guy has been chosen among the lot. When the guy doesn't reply, she'll be hell annoyed and curses under her breath - words like "IDIOT", "STUPID", "BAKA", "doesn't he turn on his phone" are common.
oh lastly, the greatest question of all time a girl can say to a guy:
WHO DO YOU LIKE?/ WHO DO YOU FANCY?/ WHAT KIND OF GIRL INTERESTS YOU?
it bascially means,
1. I'm really interested in you, so you better say it's me.
2. I know it's me, so stop denying it. If you say it out, I may give you a chance.
3. I don't like you, so don't say it's me. but if you do, i'm flattered.
4. We're buddies, so you can trust me.
5. I honestly just want to know, erm with the slight details of spreading it.
6. PICK ME PICK ME.
yeah, I love the way a girl's mind works. we are in constant denial, but we deny that we're denying.
Posted at Saturday, June 25, 2005 by alias
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